Flow, Water, flow
Blow, Wind, blow
Fire burn the pain away
Earth, calm me down
At the moment I am living in an almost complete solitude with my dog. This step on the spiritual path is described as a Hermit-stage in tarot. Apart of my job, which is the treating the pains of physical body of my fellow travelers, I meet only people who are catalysts of the growth.
In my last energy healing session it was possible to dig deep into the subconscious area of my being. This chamber was full of oily black liquid. Lights were lit there but the goo remained. Then couple of weeks ago, I used the drum with meditation and the liquid exploded to surface. Every single disrupting thought and feeling hit me like a hive of mosquitos. I was lost in this chaos and had to find a way out.
Then I remembered a short film, made by Mooji. There ego is a separate guy, harassing and making life a mess. I watched it again and found also some other teachings from this teacher. When the buzzing of the thoughts was loudest, I said in my head: I am. The effect was instant. I came back to this moment and the attack stopped.
Now I feel cleansed and have a way of protection against ego-mind attacks. Whenever I feel like some kind of theater of thought chain is forming, I do the same. I concentrate to this moment and say to myself: I am.
It is very interesting of how the mantra is easing and calming the mind. When I feel the fear of not having enough customers next week, or when I feel the anxiety of how long work day I have, I use the same technique and return to now moment.
Even I don't know how long the Hermit-stage lasts on spiritual journey, it is comforting to notice that in this moment the mind is calm and I am full of trust for the path I am walking. However long it takes, everything is all right. I am strengthening the connection with spiritual world. Tarot-deck is the way of communicating and I can trust it to work.
I am facing the occasional need to drink or eat unhealthy food and sweets as a part of my being. All things from the dark and light side of me needs to be accepted and surrendering to the life seems to be the best way to do that.
For the first time I saw an orb in my house. I have never earlier seen that kind of thing so clearly and with my physical eyes. I feel that is one strong message that spirit world is closer than before.
The miracle is next step on Spiritual path after The Hermit. It will be so exciting to notice it to form.